Heartbreak.

 

“Hey Stephen!" she texted again blowing up my phone with messages just calling my name. 

"What?" Here she goes again,

She read the message and didn’t reply for minutes and the next message pops up, "I love you."

"Shut up! That gave me chills" I replied.

Vanessa is my childhood friend and she's... she's just annoying. Really annoying! She's always following me or blowing up my phone with texts that never has a meaning, she even followed me through every school i went to, and right now here we are again in university together.

She told me that she's always making sure that she keeps me to herself. 

Funny right?

She's not ugly, but she's just not my type.

I don’t really hate her, I just really hate the idea of being followed, not having my space, and being disturbed. 

"Stephen"

"What is it AGAIN?"

"May I borrow your book?" she said then she smiled.

I stared at her. She's smiling again. That weird smile.

I let her borrow my book and she grabbed it immediately. She wrote something in my book, and she gave it back to me.

I was about to ask her what she wrote when she suddenly kissed me

"Thank you," she said then she ran outside. "WHAT THE FUCK Vanessa!?" I shouted.

I held my face, and it's hot. I can feel my face turning red.

I heard her giggle.

She's just outside the room. I can still hear her.

"I think he likes my kiss. I'll kiss him again next time," I heard her talking to herself.

"WHO TOLD YOU I LIKED IT!?" I shouted.

So annoying!

Then I looked in my book. She wrote “reply my texts” in my notebook.

Ugh!

She's always like that. She never gets tired of following me and telling me how much she loves me.

I find it weird.

Don't be mad at me just because I don't like her. It's because I'm still in love with my ex. Yes, my ex, and I'm still waiting for her to come back.

It's been 3 years since she left me for her new guy, yet I'm still waiting for her.

“STEPHEN!” *sigh*

I looked at her.

She smiled, that smile again.

"What could I do for you to fall in love with me?" she asked as she sat beside me. I was about to walk away when she suddenly held my hand.

"Stop this. "

Then I walked away.

"I LOVE YOU!" she shouted.

"I said stop this," I replied while frowning.

She's so annoying.

"Baby!" someone shouted then I looked where that voice is coming from.

"I knew it! You're my baby." Vanessa said. Oh fuck.

"So, you're my boyfriend-" "No." I said.

"But I love you and you lov-" "And I hate you."

I said, then I left her there standing.

I didn’t care if that hurt her.

"Still, I love you," I heard her whisper those words then I looked at her.

She's crying.

I don't know what happen but seeing her cry made my chest ache.

But still I ignored it.

I should not have done that, i said to myself while i walked away

"Hey Stephen. Would you go out with me on Saturday?" Vanessa asked

"No"

"How about the amusement park you lik-" "No."

"How about the beach?" "No, I won’t go with you stop this”

She pouted.

I smiled.

Wait, did i just smile?

"You like me, you see i told you”Don't worry, I won't talk about this again but just tell me the truth."

"No, I don't." I answered. "Then why did you smile" I stood up and walked away. I'm always walking away. I'm always leaving her, and I don't care. 

I don't care about her.

Well, that's what I thought.

Vanessa was the only girl who never gave up on me. All of her efforts were only for me. She never looked for someone else no matter how i acted. 

But... I ignored it.

I was too confident she'll never leave me.

"Stephen!"

I looked at her.

"My mum’s having a family dinner date and we’re supposed to go with someone, i was hoping you woul-"

"No."

"What? But I wouldn’t want to go alone for it"

"Didn't you hear what I said?"

"But-"

"I SAID NO!" I shouted.

"Sorry," she cried.

I felt i was doing too much. 

But I ignored it.

"Just stop pushing yourself to me! Don't you get it? I'm always pushing you away. I don't like you. I hate you. You're so annoying! You're not my type. STOP ALL YOU DO IT IRRITATES ME!" I shouted.

She just stood there as tears rolled down her cheek. Then she slowly looked at me and she smiled.

Not that creepy smile this time but that kind of smile that slowly breaks my heart.

"Still, I love you. I would always do" she said then she walked away.

This time, she's the one who walked away and that hurts me even more. 

*Call from an unkown number.*

"Who's this?" I asked.

"Pleasee. Vanessa just wanted to see you, she's dying…" it sounded like Vanessas mum. 

I didn't know what to say.

I felt tears roll down my cheek.

"She was hit by a car yesterday. I told her that I was going to call you after I heard her saying your name over and over again while tears rolled down from her eyes. Will you please come here? Please"

"I... I will."

Then I ended the call.

Hospital

"Vanessa… Vanessa!" I said.

I held her hand tightly as tears rolled down my cheeks.

"Vanessa, please. I want you to live. Don't die. Please. Please." I begged.

"Vanessa, I'm sorry."

I kept calling her name.

"Vanessa, I love you. I love you too. So, please. " I said.

Then her heartbeat stopped.

Doctors came in and we went out.

I was silent. I didn’t know what to do. I was praying and praying.

2 hrs had passed, the doctors came out. 

"I’m sorry, we couldn’t sa-"

That very second i broke, I didn’t see this coming. 

I opened my eyes and tears started to flow down on my cheeks.

I wiped my tears and tried to walk home. 

Vanessa was the only girl who never left me no matter what the situation is. She never got tired of me, but I ignored her. I ignored all of her efforts, even her love for me, I ignored all of it.