Addiction.

What sounds more like a fantasy

being able to find the perfect person

being in love

love itself

happiness

a lot more

Days passing by same feeling, thoughts and fear.

Days passing by and I'm fully aware i let my guard down and let her in my dark place, trusting her enough to pull me out and save me from me. 

Well most people think of love or finding the perfect person as a fantasy, lucky for me i am living that.

It had been months since we met, we enjoyed the thought of forever, the thought of spending every second with each other knowing fully well nobody else could provide us with that much happiness.

As days passed i got more attached, more addicted. Yes, addicted is the word i would use to describe it. 

Besides being fully aware i needed her for every reason, I also didn't like the idea i was not perfect. I felt she deserved perfection which wasn't me but beautiful enough she loved every piece of me. 

Day 3 and she had still not gotten back to me, well i hated the feeling it gave me but i trusted her to be good. We promised to always be good, no matter what. 

Day 4, no progress and suddenly i feel the urge to call her friend to call to confirm her whereabouts all to hear she joined the stars 3 days ago. According to her friend "She went mountain climbing with her friends and fell off the cliff..." the friend had more to say but i couldn't listen to her talk.

Sounded like a dream, no better still felt like a dream so I drove to her apartment watching people pack up her things together.